[ it has never been like this before. it's the only thing he thinks when pleasure crests over him, when he can't hold on any longer and he finally gives in. it's gratifying, and terrifying, and for long moments he knows nothing but heat and desire and the unfamiliar sensation of having something you want. he holds onto sasuke as if he will float away without him, as if he'll open his eyes and once again find himself lost. a sound escapes him, a mere gasp of breath, and he doesn't realize it's sasuke's name on his lips, it's sasuke himself that he tugs upwards with a sharp, insistent grip until they're face to face once more, his vision focusing onto mismatched eyes and a wet, abused mouth.
laurent says nothing, though a hundred words spring to his tongue. strands of blond cling to his temples, misted with sweat, his lips parted as he catches his breath, chest rising and falling. every surface of his skin feels sensitive, flushed. there's an uncomfortable wetness between his legs that he's all too aware of.
his hand lifts, tremulous fingers settling on the crescent of sasuke's cheek. his thumb traces the wet seam of sasuke's mouth, knowing that if he kisses him, he will taste himself. he has never done such a thing before. his lashes lower as he draws sasuke's lips to his, the press of it soft and impermanent, not quite a promise or a goodbye or anything. he moves his tongue to trace the line of his bottom lip, to press between them to explore, fleeting. their tongues touch, and he lingers, committing the scorch of flame inside of him to memory.
a soft, wet sound as their mouths part — ] You can go.
[ laurent's hand slides to sasuke's chest, and as he rises to sit up he pushes sasuke's body apart from his. for a moment all is still, the two of them sitting tangled on the bed, laurent's palm pressed to the thrum of sasuke's heart. ]
[Later, he will attribute the dizzy, spinning state of his mind to breathlessness from restricted airflow — an understandable reaction after having his throat used, after Laurent immediately draws him to his lips before there even exists time or space to breathe, while he's still panting and swallowing around that bitter-salt taste. He can feel it still thick on his tongue. Then it is there between their mouths, intimacy that becomes almost tender and inexplicable because Laurent is the one who has engaged it. He is dizzy and out of sorts, outside rational thinking. So of course the tide of emotion breaks through like a wave. Of course he lets it get to him.
He lets Laurent get to him. From the slow, exploratory pass of lips and tongue, to fingertips on his cheek, to mingling exhales, to the cold and sudden separation. Sasuke goes back on his knees unresisting, brow furrowed in the first hurt signal of confusion.]
That's it? [His voice is rough, scraped and rasping. He swallows again thickly, and as he does — as each breath returns him to clarity — the confusion clears to a bright, white sky of anger.] You're done with this.
[Now? Forever? The most vulnerable act he's committed with another person, and Laurent wants him to leave, is ready to see him gone. Automatically he snatches the pale wrist of the arm extended to keep him at bay; his heart races beneath that warm, open palm. In the same mercurial whiplash, anger cools to gray, dull embers of resignation. His grasp loosens and falls away.]
Fine.
[It's spoken in the quietest voice he has used so far, no more than a murmur as he withdraws the rest of the way, gathers the shaky remains of his composure, and slips noiselessly off the end of the bed. He should, truly, expect no different — as Laurent has made known again and again. Hopeful, childlike naivety has no place between them.
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laurent says nothing, though a hundred words spring to his tongue. strands of blond cling to his temples, misted with sweat, his lips parted as he catches his breath, chest rising and falling. every surface of his skin feels sensitive, flushed. there's an uncomfortable wetness between his legs that he's all too aware of.
his hand lifts, tremulous fingers settling on the crescent of sasuke's cheek. his thumb traces the wet seam of sasuke's mouth, knowing that if he kisses him, he will taste himself. he has never done such a thing before. his lashes lower as he draws sasuke's lips to his, the press of it soft and impermanent, not quite a promise or a goodbye or anything. he moves his tongue to trace the line of his bottom lip, to press between them to explore, fleeting. their tongues touch, and he lingers, committing the scorch of flame inside of him to memory.
a soft, wet sound as their mouths part — ] You can go.
[ laurent's hand slides to sasuke's chest, and as he rises to sit up he pushes sasuke's body apart from his. for a moment all is still, the two of them sitting tangled on the bed, laurent's palm pressed to the thrum of sasuke's heart. ]
I'm done with this.
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He lets Laurent get to him. From the slow, exploratory pass of lips and tongue, to fingertips on his cheek, to mingling exhales, to the cold and sudden separation. Sasuke goes back on his knees unresisting, brow furrowed in the first hurt signal of confusion.]
That's it? [His voice is rough, scraped and rasping. He swallows again thickly, and as he does — as each breath returns him to clarity — the confusion clears to a bright, white sky of anger.] You're done with this.
[Now? Forever? The most vulnerable act he's committed with another person, and Laurent wants him to leave, is ready to see him gone. Automatically he snatches the pale wrist of the arm extended to keep him at bay; his heart races beneath that warm, open palm. In the same mercurial whiplash, anger cools to gray, dull embers of resignation. His grasp loosens and falls away.]
Fine.
[It's spoken in the quietest voice he has used so far, no more than a murmur as he withdraws the rest of the way, gathers the shaky remains of his composure, and slips noiselessly off the end of the bed. He should, truly, expect no different — as Laurent has made known again and again. Hopeful, childlike naivety has no place between them.
Without a look back, he makes for the door.]